heaven
can
wait
forever
breakfast
can't wait
alarms ring
inside thin
apartment
walls
though her
sister couldn't
hear the slapping
phone calls
duty calls
'you're not my type,
but we must
fuck now'
her dark curls
harbor fallen
flakes of
skin
it tangles thick
like mine
i pull hard
i squeeze and bite
but i never
get her there
now she's
the one
noticing
my age
gray temples
ragged rainbow beard
condoms cinch
my strength
again
i wish
Em had
let me in
at full mast
instead
of borrowing
phrases
like
'full mast'
to
describe
other
lovers
the week of halloween
Twenty Fourteen
Knights of Cocaine
bleed into early
days with strangers
their exotic hides
educated accents
mysterious yellow
powders
in pouches
and narcotic
nightmares smear
into colorful
confirmations:
i succeeded in making
a beast of me;
speed and ecstasy and
this ghastly
revelation smolder
until familial
support appears
an apparition
driving me north
under blankets
under hard narcotics
the needles drop
the wax crackles
and shoulders
squeeze, release;
and also the thighs,
i realize on waking with
a text from you
its truly through
and the doctor
slides it in
expertly
my veins don't
yet recoil
its early
its warm
under the soil
tonight was one
of those
without a woman
after so many
consecutive
women
we shot half
an oxy
per head
and drank
sierras
as the crowd
poured over
into our bar
the fellas made
bird calls
and supposed how
much cash
the bar made
minor celebrities burned
in the fantastic light
of harsh memory
