unrequited

i keep watching this equation
play out like a hieroglyph in my imagination
i reach for you
i'm slapped
i put a gun in my mouth

i am the zen poet master
i will write this all on parchment
and ceremoniously burn it

i'm going to tattoo
the word unrequited on my arm
and cut it off

poetry annoy me

messages massaged
into porno blog cafeteria fires

nevermind the bollocks
here's the death fantasy

send me up the river

you could set your watch by it

waking up stiff
restless
rolling back and forth
in these blankets
grinding head into pillow
hips against cool fabric

so much care
many touches
scratching, squeezing
stretching the skin
fingertips, nipples,
shattered sunlight reminding
me of a careful fuck fest
beyond their imaginations
and beyond my choreography

to grab those thighs
feeling tense cords of muscle
under milky canvas

or to kiss swollen breasts
big and small
see fleshy pockets shaking
feel beads of jewelry against my tongue

spreading moisture
before sensing at the tips of me
all the caves
and trapped explorers
with their arms pinned,
spelunking new spaces
within the
only universe
worth exploring