Monday, July 21, 2014

after work

there is an ashtray half-full
with four of my butts
and two or three others
with a sticky roach 
i found the other morning
a half-sucked mint
plus countless wiry hairs
from my beard
all floating in 
a sea of white noise 
from a tv set

the ash swims 
like fresh snow
when the wind
hits just so

she never really felt it
as deep as our fucking went
all i needed was her body
and laughter and eyes 
they all eventually 
went grim

that other one reaches
too far, too fast, hasty with
naive opinions
and her sunny thighs must taste like
youth and fashion 
but i won't make an absurd effort
to bed her before she leaves town
so soon

this other woman i only
know as a professional 
persona, crafted slices of 
herself into smart art
she tells her jokes onstage and
owns me when she tickles 
the brain, but how to turn
fanship into friendship or fuckship?

this one had it for me
until another man finally
got the hint and started
to treat her like a right investment
now we're like contestants;
game-show people
among so much 
pretense of subculture
the absurdity of pairing
obvious enough to me anyway
so i can hardly keep a
straight face today

i'm going to
fucking fill
this ashtray

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