wake-up call

at 5:38 am
i heard thunder
seconds later
a flash of blue and pink
as the breeze pushed
the blinds forward
early light filled
my
room
a moment

i pulled on shorts
t shirt
went out
lit a smoke and
shivered

coldest memory
so far
this summer
spastic breath
goosebumps
while the flask and
the self-hypnosis
handouts waited
on my bedside table

it was winter
last time
the wind cut
so clean

i saw shadows bending
at the bus stop
that day
light
herself
was confused at
where to spray
and so are you, baby

so was she

so are we all

so say we all